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The Birth of A Man

Posted by akamrromance on May 20, 2010

There comes a time in a man’s life when he wakes up. He realizes what his life is, he realizes what his actions have done, but most importantly he realizes how his actions affect the people in his life.

I was not always the best man that I believe I could have been. My actions caused pain, suffering, and doubt to the people that mattered the most in my life. It was at this point that I found myself at the “crossroads” of my life. I am not proud of who I used to be but what I went through profoundly changed me as a human being. Two things contributed to my “awakening.” The first things was the end of my marriage and the second thing is my job. I spent countless hours by myself with nothing better to do than to think.

You may be asking yourself right now what is the point of this piece? I want to tell everyone that I failed as a man and that it cost me the ultimate price. I lost my family because of my actions. My marriage failed as a result of my actions. I failed my daughter in the sense that I could have been a better husband and the family could have stayed together. I live with this each and every day. Don’t let your family suffer because of your actions. You do not want to know the pain that I know.

I am not writing this for pity. I do not ask for or want anyone’s pity. I am a man who lives with his past. I am writing this in the hope that one or more men will read this and have it impact their life. I feel the emotions that run through me on a daily basis and wish these feeling’s upon no person. If you are reading this I am asking you to question yourself about what your actions are. Are you the best man that you can be? Do your actions have an impact on the people that matter the most to you? What can you do better? Are you proud of the man that you are? Once you have asked yourself these questions and answer them honestly it is my belief that you will be on the path that will change your life.

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15 Responses to “The Birth of A Man”

  1. I’m sorry that you’re hurting.. I think the hardest lessons we learn are those closest to our hearts … ❤

  2. @dimplesAng said

    Glad to see you finally got around to this. You’ve spoken of it for a long time. Maybe someone will read & take note

  3. The True Gentleman is the man whose conduct proceeds from good will and an acute sense of propriety, and whose self-control is equal to all emergencies; who does not make the poor man conscious of his poverty, the obscure man of his obscurity, or any man of his inferiority or deformity; who is himself humbled if necessity compels him to humble another; who does not flatter wealth, cringe before power, or boast of his own possessions or achievements; who speaks with frankness but always with sincerity and sympathy; whose deed follows his word; who thinks of the rights and feelings of others, rather than his own; and who appears well in any company, a man with whom honor is sacred and virtue safe.

    – John Walter Wayland –

  4. jessi said

    Having time to reflect is usually a good thing for anyone. However the heart has to be open to that time to reflect and really make things make sense in our hearts. I would only add to your post that a woman could also feel and arrive at the same emotions and conclusions as any man.
    We are all beings who are learning in this world. not letting our past mistakes dictate our future is important as well.

  5. Ruby said

    Kudo’s to you dear akamrromance. Takes a whole lotta humility and courage to acknowledge what has passed and the roles played. But, it has passed and you are not defined by all that, but rather by who you have become and who you’ve discovered was there all this time. I am so in awe with your desire to reach out to other men that may be going thru this as well..and women for that matter. Mnay blessings to you on your journey and may the light and love of a new day fall lightly on your shoulders.

    Blessings and Love,
    Ruby

  6. Kudos to you for expressing yourself on this subject.

    Send this over to Jesse James and Tiger Woods…

  7. Elisabeth said

    I think the same could be said of women…not just men. Thanks for writing this….excellent food for thought.

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